So tonight I've been going through some of Wyatt's baby pictures. I sure do miss my little squish! Looking at these pictures makes me think back to when I found out I was pregnant. Such a scary time for both Alex and I.
I don't think many people know this but Alex and I talked about adoption. Getting pregnant so soon was not in our cards. We never thought that would happen to us. Surprised was not even what we were. Shocked. terrified. Speechless.
When I look at pictures of Wyatt I can't help but think 'what if?' What if we went through with the adoption? If I were to see him out on the street would I recognize him? Would I have the natural bond or pull? I honestly have no idea. And I'm glad I don't know. I hate thinking it.
Getting pregnant so fast and so young. There are many who will understand this. There are many who won't and will never. Luckily I have great friends who loved, helped and supported me through out that time. I was lucky to have a man step up and take responsibility. And a wonderful family. Even though they didn't agree with what was happening -and it took some time to get used to the idea- they stuck by me.
So next month is mine and Alex's two year anniversary! Holy cow!! Crazy how fast time goes by. It's been the best two years I could have ever asked for! Getting the man of my dreams, the sweetest babe, strengthening my testimony, making my goal of going to the temple, finding out we're expanding our family! Just so many wonderful things with many more great memories to be had. :)
