Hormones. They. Suck. I think every woman can agree with me. And men too. It's not so bad when it's regular PMSing. But pregnancy makes it 1000x worse.
Today was a normal day for me. With the exception of being in an overly heightened emotional state I got my feelings hurt and was absolutely hysterical. And it's for the dumbest reason ever. Stupid Facebook..
Monday I had posted a picture of an early surprise I had gotten for Alex. (his birthday is right after Mother's Day) We were in need of a new one and I knew that Alex would love and appreciate it. So I got him a new (to us) lawn mower. The one that we had before was an absolute POS. It would some times be frustrating for Alex to mow the lawn.
I was SOOOOO incredibly excited to show him what I had got him. I think I was more excited than he was! (I just love giving people presents. It just makes my day!) He really did seem to like it and even mentioned today that if it hadn't been for the rain he would have mowed the lawn.
But today on Facebook a couple people commented and made it seem like all I do is make him work... :( I read those comments and I just immediately broke down sobbing! Like my face was all blotchy my breathing was out of control and yeah. I was just a wreck. (You don't want to see me cry. I'm an ugly crier) I called Alex bawling asking him if he really did like his present or if he wanted me to take it back. He reassured me multiple times that he loved it and he wanted to keep it.
Over the phone he tried to help me calm down but I was so upset. I really thought I did a bad job! The mower wasn't even his real present. I have a different surprise for him and this was just an added last minute gift. Something I found for a good price and that we actually did need a new one.
Later this evening it was brought up again but this time in person. He told me that it shouldn't matter what other people think of it. It's something that is for him that he loves. While I know that's true I think it was just the chemical imbalance in me that made me break down. The comments weren't rude but I chose to take offense to them. Ugh. Stupid hormones!
I'm grateful that I have such a sweet caring husband who reassures me when I'm full of doubt. Someone who loves me when I don't/can't seem to love myself. What a guy! I'm so glad that I get to be with him for eternity. I'm very excited for his birthday that is coming up in less than a week. A day to celebrate his life! I don't know where I'd be if I hadn't met him. He is my better half. <3
